I LOVE this movie

I've decided to post things, occasionally, that make me laugh. I won't do the weekends thing since I couldn't come up with a wicked cool name for it. Anywho, this wasn't the clip I was looking for from this movie, but the whole thing is gold as far as I'm concerned. Anyway, enjoy!



Anyway catch the moral of the story?? lol

Cheers

Exams Suck

Ok, so I know that prior to getting to Mac I was at Sheridan for two years, so I shouldn't be so surprised that exams suck. But really, Mac exams are from an entirely different world. Seriously. They don't try to test your knowledge with an exam, they try to test your testicular fortitude. If you can walk out of the exam without bursting into tears, you pass.

Ok, well I can rank the impossibility of my exams, from most to least impossible: PSYCH, Bio, Stats. I still don't understand why they bother even making the exam reference psychology. Nobody would notice the difference. Talk about impossibly obscure questions! And Bio. Ok, in all fairness it's not really impossible if you have any interest or talent when it comes to science. I, personally, don't, so ya. That's all I have to say about that. Except screw science, I hope it dies, and they will NEVER see my face again! Ok, well, biology. I actually like chemistry and physics. Strange eh?

And then there's stats. To me, the easiest of tests, in general. Honestly, the easiest exam. As my eyes scanned through the pages, I thought to myself 'I got this!'. I flipped back to page one, put my pencil to the paper, and then something happened to me that has never, ever happened before. Maybe it was the exhaustion. Maybe I honestly blew a brain fuse. I don't know. Maybe I was automatically overthinking. But anyway, I blanked. Just like that. I'd get halfway through solving a problem and think either a) crap i don't know how to keep going from here,or b) crap, i don't think I'm using the right formula. And then there were the questions I'd stare at be like 'i know exactly how to solve this...why can't I figure out how to solve this? I'd know the formula until I actively went to use it and then the formula would disappear.

Yeah, so I pretty much bombed all of my exams. At least they're over. Next semester, I'll come up with a new game plan! Now, on to housewarming plans...I really should start calling around.

Anyway

Cheers

Tales from an insomniac???

Maybe I should temporarily rename this blog...what do you think? Seriously, I don't seem to have a philosophy in life anymore...I just kinda go to school, go home, go to study, go out, go back home, don't sleep, and start all over again. When do I actually ever spend any time thinking or analysing anything anymore? Seriously, I, Jessica, loud, talkative, has an opinion about everything and refuses to keep it to herself Jessica, no longer has opinions. I don't think I actually got less opinionated as much as I suddenly have no time (or am waayyyy too tired) to actually bother paying attention to the things around me. I guess maybe if I had time to care about anything but school ( and desperately praying for a regular sleep pattern like other people) then I'd have time to read the daily news on MSN, or other peoples blogs, or even have a truly intellectual conversation with someone. Sighhh....Hmm, maybe we should make this 'An Insomniac Ranting" and in parenthesis mention "take her with a grain of salt...she's tired" so it'll be kinda witty and funny but in the way that really intellectual people find things funny, but they aren't really actually funny, they're just obvious statements stated with a kind of dry tone of voice.

Oh well, Law and Order's back on...might as well enjoy good programing while the gettings good

Good Morning every one!

Cheers

P.S. I noticed that the time that the post says isn't the time it is here. It's actually 5:41am...do you know where your children are?? :-P

Don't call me Baby

Oh, btw, I just wanted to share with you how irritating I find the term 'baby'. Why is it that when two people get together they start calling each other 'baby' instead of by their actual names? I mean, an occasional 'baby' is fine, but all the time?!?!?. I think that laziness prevails and because one feels extremely comfortable with their partner their partners' name is almost unimportant. All that matters is their position in their life, not who they are, or how that individual actually matters in their life. All that matters is that they are 'baby' and therefore play the role of 'my baby' in one's life. I wish some book or magazine would come out with some advice as to how to avoid this 'baby' trap and thereby actually acknowledge one's partner as an individual whose individual personality and actions actually benefit one's life.

Just a random rant

Cheers

Ok Then

So.....I'm an insomniac...I guess whatever I am I should be terribly proud or whatever, cause thats what being canadian is all about! However, I'm not proud, just tired. And stressed. I don't know how many of you suffer from some type of insomnia, but if you suffer from at least one type of insomnia then you know that all of them suck. Not being able to sleep when you're exhausted is the most frustrating thing. Whats even more frustrating to finally fall asleep cause you're so exhausted, only to wake up within the next half hour, just as frustrated as ever! This won't be long, primarily cause I can't be bothered; but I will say this....if you're not there it's impossible to understand just how hard it is to deal with everything I deal with and then on top of that go through an insomnia period. I won't get into anything, but lordy, I wish I could friggin' sleep :-S

Cheers

P.S. I have SOO much studying to do for this bloody psych exam on Saturday...what kind of sadist decided to make an exam on a saturday at 9 AM???????

What Season Am I??

Ok, so I decided to do this quiz about what season I am...most of it is sooo far off, but as you read it I want you to try and guess the only part of this thats true.... I'll let you know at the end of the post, but no peeking at first, I really want y'all to try and guess.

***You Are Easter***

You are an optimistic, hopeful, and genuinely sweet person.
Sensitive and affectionate, you are easily touched.
You love nature, animals, and anything cute or cuddly.
For you, every day is a new chance - no matter what happened yesterday.

What makes you celebrate: Almost anything. You love most holidays and celebrations.

At holiday get togethers, you do best as: The peacemaker. You can prevent any squabbles that might break out.

On a holiday, you're the one most likely to: Remember to include everyone


What Holiday Are You? Try it out!!
http://www.blogthings.com/whatholidayareyouquiz/

Wasn't that informative?? Lol..for those of you who don't know me, no..it's not...its entirely not me. Try it out and see if it works out well for you.

Wanna know which line describes me best???
"On a holiday, you're the one most likely to: Remember to include everyone"

Cheers

School Sucked the Life Outta Me!!

Wow!! Ok, I know I have absolutely no follow through, but this is ridiculous!! Ok, honestly I think this happened because whatever identity and personal life I had was entirely destroyed by school!! I honestly have forgotten many little details of life; important dates, birthdays I've known forever, todays date, the day of the week...but somehow or another I always know whats due in school, what classes I have, and where all those classes are.

Ok, so at least for the Christmas break here I hope to keep up my blog again. Not that I had terribly large following to begin with, but I hope to get some of ya back. Good luck with studying for exams everyone!

What's happening with the world today?

Hey y'all,

This is gonna be my first real blog in a long time, and even more so my first opinion related blog since pretty much my begininng week. i say that so you're not expecting my very best; its actually been quite a while since I've written anything at all, pretty much, but this topic is touching me quite personally, so I've decided to share.

Anyway, I've been reflecting a lot lately since finding out that a person who was close friends (and a cousin actually to some) of my friends has recently been stabbed. It happened in sleepy Meadowvale, where most of the crime is bar fight or drinking and driving related. Don't get me wrong-I don't live in a peaceful, perfect little suburb, and bad stuff does happen here, but not that often. And more often than not, I'm never connected to anyone involved.

So maybe its that I don't pay attention; no matter, thats not really the point. The point is that this is now the fifth person in the past 5 years I've either known, or known through association, that has been murdered. And really, when it comes down to it, it all seems so senseless to me. These people have lives and friends and family, but yet others who have the same decide to take the person away forever, and probably for no really good reason. (is there ever really a good reason to kill? The movie A Time to Kill may be be a good argument for it, but in the cases I speak of I don't think thats the case)

I mean really, has anyone ever pissed you off? Has anyone ever stolen from you, screwed you over in some way, hurt you even? Do you decide to go and kill that person? I mean, you want to get revenge, hurt that person back, maybe even try to ruin their life. But to end it? Who is that going to hurt? The person who hurt you, or the innocent friends and family who had nothing to do with it? Who is going to learn a lesson from it? Nobody, because the only person you wanted to learn a lesson, or be sorry, or fear you probably spends their last moments either thinking of family, thinking of pain, or praying to save their souls. The last person they probably think of is the person who killed them. And if anything, they probably most definitely don't care about why that person killed them.

What ever happened to beating the crap out of someone who deserved it? Some pisses you off, steals your crap, sleeps with your girlfriend or whatever, and you beat them down, and then make sure they have the fear of God within them next time they catch a glimpse of you, even if this involves threats. As Eminem cleverly put it "...so you can come back again and kick dirt on them". Do those who kill someone actually feel satisfied? I just can't imagine, no matter how you put it, that killing someone would solve the problem (again I'm talking about this kind of murder, so please don't think I generalize to the ENTIRE population. I'm sure there are many who think that at some point killing someone if the situation warranted it would be OK).

I guess it all comes down to the fact that I can't understand how the world has gotten to the point where we really think murder is the solution. What? Do you murder the person who slighted you to command fear? Respect? Show people you mean business? Show the world you're tough? There are better ways to do this, honestly, and not for anything, but I'm pretty sure there are ways of achieving these things that will have more of a lasting impact. Can they sleep at night? Do they go on living and not even care? Do they now live in fear every day of retaliation? I guess maybe this is why I could never have been part of this kind of life; I couldn't deal. Seriously. I don't see how anyone can.

For those of you who know who I speak of, I give my condolences. Although I didn't really know him, I met him a few times and saw him around, and I know he got your love and respect which means above all else he was a good person. I hope you all stay safe.

On this note, I'll say later. This is not a subject to which I would say cheers, but I will say take care everyone. And think about your choices. Each one has an impact on the web of the Universe.

Sooooo True!

Ok, sorry about missing our funny Sunday thing! In lieu of that, I wanted to give you something thats funny, but only cause it's true. Do you remember doing this to your parents??

I sure do! I should my mom and she laughed for like an hour! Anyway, to those of you in school right now, stop watching nonsense on my blog and get back to studying! Midterms are just around the corner!

For those of you not in school, please, continue to read (or watch) while continuosly looking over your shoulder for your boss! Seriously! But if you end up with whiplash you have no one to blame but yourself!!

LOL, anyway, Cheers!!

For Your Health

Just read this, and I thought I should share in case you don't read or watch the news. This could be serious as Dole is a huge and highly trusted company. Guess, go check your lettuce. Funny, you won't hear me say a darn word about mad cow disease, but E. Coli I find to be an issue...where are my priorities? Anyway, here you go!!


Dole recalls bagged lettuce after sample in Canada tests positive for E. coli
17/09/2007 9:14:00 PM
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SAN FRANCISCO (CP) - A division of Dole Food has issued an international recall of bagged salad after a sample taken from a store in Canada tested positive for E. coli.

Dole recalls bagged lettuce after sample in Canada tests positive for E. coli

Company officials say there have been no reports of illness.

The voluntary recall affects all packages of Dole's Hearts Delight salad mix sold in the United States and Canada with a best if used by date of September 19, 2007 and a production code of A24924A or A24924B.

Marty Ordman, a Dole spokesman, says the product was sold in Ontario, Quebec and the Maritimes and in Illinois, Indiana, Maine, Michigan, Mississippi, New York, Ohio, Pennsylvania, Tennessee and neighbouring U-S states, starting the weekend before last.

The romaine, green leaf and butter lettuce hearts that went into the blend were grown in California, Colorado and Ohio, then processed at Dole's plant in Springfield, Ohio, on September 6.

Eighty-eight cases were distributed in Canada and 755 cases in the United States.

The company's move came a day after the Canadian Food Inspection Agency warned consumers not to eat Hearts Delight.

"Our overriding concern is for consumer safety," Eric Schwartz, president of the Dole Fresh Vegetable division said in a statement.

He said the company was working with U.S. and Canadian health agencies, as well as those in various states.

The U.S. Food and Drug Administration was talking with Westlake Village, Calif.-based Dole about the situation, agency spokesman Michael Herndon said.

The Canadian agency said it would be looking to find out at what point the salad blend, which is imported into Canada, became contaminated and see if any other products are affected, spokesman Garfield Balsom said.

Last year, an E. coli outbreak traced to bagged baby spinach was blamed for the deaths of three people and for sickening hundreds more across the United States and Canada.

State and U.S. authorities ultimately identified a central California cattle ranch next to spinach fields belonging to one of Dole's suppliers as being the source of the bacteria.

Food contaminated with this strain of E. coli may not look or smell spoiled but health officials say the bacteria can cause life-threatening illnesses.

Symptoms include severe abdominal pain and bloody diarrhea; some people can have seizures or strokes and some may need blood transfusions and kidney dialysis, while others may live with permanent kidney damage.

For more information, consumers and industry can call the CFIA at 1-800-442-2342, or TTY 1-800-465-7735, between 8:00 a.m. and 8:00 p.m. ET, Monday to Friday.
Copyright The Canadian Press

Wow, two in one day! I'm on a role....not that its making it terribly easy for me since I don't actively have to really WRITE much!! hehehheehe

Cheers

Holy Crap!!!

I just read this in the daily MSN news. I've never heard anything like it---> In fact, I can't believe that this could actually happen to anyone!

Chinese man drops dead in Internet cafe after 3-day gaming binge
17/09/2007 9:54:00 AM

BEIJING (AP) - A man in southern China appears to have died of exhaustion after a three-day Internet gaming binge, state media said Monday.

Chinese man drops dead in Internet cafe after 3-day gaming binge

The 30-year-old man fainted at a cybercafe in the city of Guangzhou on Saturday afternoon after he had been playing games online for three days, the Beijing News reported.

Paramedics tried to revive him but failed and he was declared dead at the cafe, it said. The paper said that he may have died from exhaustion brought on by too many hours on the Internet.

The report did not say what the man, whose name was not given, was playing.

It said that about 100 other surfers "left the cafe in fear after witnessing the man's death."

China has 140 million Internet users, second only to the United States. It is one of the world's biggest markets for online games, with tens of millions of players, many of whom hunker down for hours in front of computers in public Internet cafes.

Several cities have clinics to treat what psychiatrists have dubbed "Internet addiction" in users, many of them children and teenagers, who play online games or surf the web for days at a time.
Copyright The Canadian Press

Wow!! Aren't you a bit surprised? I was

anyway

Cheers

Ok, so I'm a slacker...

That being said, I think I'm gonna have to drop the whole 'share my day' thing. I started off saying I had no interest in having a blog that details my life...and I think I'm definitely back with that position. Although it was really cathartic to be able to share a bit of my life when I was going through the tough times, I think ultimately I don't really have an interesting life, and I truly don't care to share every detail of it with the world...I want to fool you all in to thinking I live some type of glamourous, jamp packed life!!

Ok, so that being said, we're going back to the beginning....my absolutely FASCINATING....you guessed it...POINT OF VIEW (on everything!!!) !!! Ok, I'm definitely sticking to my funny weekend bits, but if you do see a post otherwise it's gonna have to do with my opinion of some topic (occassionally or more this could actually coincide with the events of my life....who knows???) I've come up with quite a few things I wanted to make a post about, but then I felt so guilty for not having filled you in on school etc, and then I figured I couldn't give my rant without first doing the fill in thing...and the cycle goes on.

So anyway, without further ado, I present to you my funny section (it's returning to cartoon for today! Still thinking of a name!!) Now, I know police racism/brutality in reality isn't funny...that being said these 2 clips I always thought were so terrible (and yet hilarious) that I thought I'd share them with you! Go Family Guy!!!





I know, terrible right??
Anyway, Cheers!!

Because I Got High, because I got high, because I got high...duh da dun, dun, dun, na, nun, nah

OK, so once again I'm a bit late with my weekend funny, but heck, as long as I remember I think I'm A-OK!! Ok, so that being said, I wanted to give you my Sunday funny. Now, I wanted to make sure those of you young enough not to know, weed kills brain cells, and what I'm presenting here is as close to the truth as you can get!! That being said, it's still hella funny and definitely a song everyone should take a very contemplaitive listen to!! hehehhehehehehe contemplaitive....heheheheh...ok, regardless, just listen cause its awesome (really, it is!!!) and I'll be back tomorrow (or one day...soon....oh gosh I'm useless :-P ;-)) to FINALLY recap my week last week. In the mean time, I present to you the not quite Sunday...I don't know about Funday Rob....what about Saturdays????........comedy clip---BECAUSE I GOT HIGH!!!!
Oh, BTW Viewer discretion advised for lyrical content!! Otherwise, enjoy y'all!!

Cheers! And have a happy week!!

Darn It!!!!

Oh, Crap!!! So, I'm a little late with this post. In my personal defense, I forgot that i hadn't actually posted anything after my first day of Frosh (which sucked *****) or my first day of school, so technically it ain't really my fault. :-P Ok, so that being said, I'm not about to give you a damn thing right now....I'm tired and uncomfortable, and right now all I can think of is sleeeeeeepppppp....but, as for my loyalty to my dearest fans (go Rob and Michelle...lol...sad but true, and y'all aren't exactly fans either are you????) i thought I could at least try to stick to the weekend funnies that still don't have a name cause clearly I still haven't focused my energies or thoughts enough on it to officially name it anything (although I love your idea Rob....but how do we incorporate that with saturdays???)
Ok, so for your Saturday awesomely funny clip, I give you....

Ok, so I had no idea, but I'm watching Blade 3, and it occurred to me that this is one of the funniest, most quoted scenes that I always forget about. So...I decided this was it....kinda like fate or....well, whatever....its gonna be awesome though. I'll be back tomorrow (maybe) to share my week with you (maybe) or at least to give you a funny clip (OK, sad I know, but probably the most likely). I'm really trying, but follow through just isn't my strong suit. OK, well, i love this part of the movie, hope you love it too!! (just so you're not disappointed, its not a fighting part, but it's funny as hell!!!) Did I present it already?? Oh gosh, I'm too tired to care. So much for tradition....hopefully I did. If not, enjoy anyway.

Cheers!!
Happy Humidity Weekend!!! (Lord I hope it stays this way forever!!!)

Sunday...Sattire???....Enjoyment

Ok, so we haven't agreed on a name yet, but I figured that I would temporarily use this name for now. (like for now doesn't mean temporarily ;-)!!) Anyway, not gonna get technical with symantics (remember from a past post; just because I'm not EXACTLY sure what the owrd mean doesn't mean I can't use it...besides, it works, don't it :-P), I wanted to present to you the Sunday Sattire clip for the weekend before school stars... The Marvel/DC Commercial (spoof of the Mac/PC commercials)(like you haven't noticed that there's a direct link to the Mac/PC commercials at the side of my blog there)(the right side for those of you who haven't noticed!) Honestly, I think it is awesome and should most definitely be highlighted for those of you who aren't that observant or are just plain lazy, just so you get to wintness just how awesome they are. Don't get me wrong, everyone's allowed to their own opinions and stuff, but I think you'd have to be entirely, well, i won't say, but you know, something bad :-P, for you not to think they're awesome!

Anyway, this edition of Sunday...Sattire???... has been presented. Enjoy! and to all of those who start school tomorrow, happy miserable 8 months of life!!!

Cheers!!

Rabble!!

Ok, so I thought I would try with the whole follow through thing and try to post a funny clip (or more than one depending on how many I think of or can find) today and tomorrow. Maybe I'll call it...Weekend Comics? No, thats too newspaperish. Sattire Saturdays...and Sattire Sundays...and maybe the whole weekend can be called...Sattire Fun days?? But what if I don't always want sattire? Like last weeks commercial. *Sigh* I don't know...well, whatever we're gonna call it, and any suggestions on that will be greatly appreciated, here comes another funny clip for your weekend enjoyment!! I'm not sure if its the full clip I wanted here or not, but my volume control is not working at the moment so I couldn't listen to it first. Anyway, I know its from the episode I wanted. Anyway, 'member last week when I mentioned rabble? If you didn't know what I was talking about, now you will!! Enjoy!

Cheers!

Recap Continued!!

Phew...ok, so I worked out, i did my anger management exercises, went out for a drink, and have now finally gotten over York (stupid York!! grrr) and can now continue with my week recap.

Ok, so Tuesday....hmmmm, what happened on Tuesday again? Oh yeah, so Tuesday I went down to Mac and my cousin Michelle gave me a tour of the campus. Honestly, it helped alot because now the campus isn't so big and scary and once I start some stuff will seem familiar to me. And it was fun too. Now if only I could have done all of that without all of that crazy, crazy walking, it would be fantastic! We walked down to the frozen yogurt place, which honestly I never would have seen myself walking to before...ever...it was SOOO far...but really it wasn't THAT bad. Besides I figured I should get used to this walking thing cause without it I'm gonna miss a whole lotta classes. Right, but I should continue with the recap instead of focusing on how much I HATE walking, especially if there's a purpose behind it......count backwards from ten, spaz!!....Ok, so the frozen yogurt was really good (I had a smoothie thing) and then we went to my cousins house, which is kinda like a fancy little cottage, but its nice. And with her paraphenalia and posters all about, her room is really neat. Really reminds me of what I expect dorm life to be like.

Ok, so on to wednesday, which was nice but also tiring cause I had so much walking to do then too!! However, somehow or another I can always dismiss this type of walking....you guessed it, SHOPPING!!! My sister and I went to Dixie Value Mall to do some back to school shopping. I didn't think I'd get as much stuff as I did, and really didn't think I would enjoy the experience as much as I did, but it was a whole lot of fun. Well, hanging out with my sister always is, but I hate busy stores and malls, and I hate shopping trying to find sizes, and this always is at its peak at any major occassion (back to school, christmas, valentines). And then on top of that, I hate shopping with people smaller than me, because they can always find their sizes in all the clothes they want, and can always get great stuff off the sales rack. But really none of these issues happened, or if they did I was already having such a good time that it didn't matter! Except for my sisters random pee breaks (and the mad dash from one end of the mall to the other :-P) everything went perfectly and we both made out like bandits!! Woo Hoo!!

I would like to take this time to mention that I haven't been back to school shopping in like 8 years. That being said, I realize I'm not in high school anymore, so please don't think what I bought was a load of glamour clothes. New jeans, sweaters that actually fit, and a whole bunch of t shirts and tank tops. Thats what I bought. You probably won't even notice when I do wear it that its new. But doesn't it feel good to be all crisp and new for your first month of school? Doesn't it make you feel more optimistic, more willing to achieve, more eager to actually roll out of bed everymorning and get your day started a bit earlier than at the absolute last second?

So, Thursday I hung out with Desi the whole day. It was good cause we haven't really had a whole lot of time lately to just hang out just cause we wanted to. We spent like an hour or so at his house talking to his family cause his parents have gone to Arizona for 2 weeks. Apparently where they're living is an honest to god mansion, complete with waterfall and rocks in their pool in the backyard. I hope one day I get to see that!

Friday Desi got to my house at like 7 am cause he was on his way back from the airport. I woke up when he got here but then I was out til like 1. So anyway, he met what is probably going to be our new contractor for the basement. Yes, the original guy is a stupid flake! Seriously, he was supposed to already be done of Friday that just passed. Even with a couple people in our basement, the new contractor is saying that theres a good at least two weeks left of work...what the HELL was the other contractor doing all this time. Well, whatever, we've pretty much fired him. Now, if only he'd return a phone call he'd know that. Anyway, friday night we went out to PARTEEEE!!! cause it's my official last weekend before school starts. We had a lot of fun, and cabbed it back home, where a proceeded to eat an entire small pizza systematically all by myself. So much for trying to be reasonable with my eating habits!!

And that brings us to today, which hasn't actually really even started yet for me, but in theory either today or tomorrow we have to go exchange a couple shirts, buy another pair of jeans, get a new school bag, a pocket thing for the laptop, and other school supplies. I'll let you know how everything goes.

Have a good weekend y'all

Cheers

Time flies!!

Wow!! Time sure flies when you're getting ready for school! I can't believe it's friday already. For the majority of you who are going back to school, your starting date is probably Tuesday. Suprisingly, mine is on Thursday. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining at all, but boy after this 4 month long anticipation, those extra 2 days will seem like forever. It's Ok though, I have a whole lot of getting ready left to do before Thursday, so the extra time will ultimately be very useful.

Ok, so to recap my week: Monday I learned that I hate York University, and I am SO glad I decided not to go there. After learning from their website I had to call in to cancel my OSAP application with them, I sat on hold for over an hour, only for them to tell me I would have to submit this request in writing. Ok, so I wanted to impress upon these people that I absolutely must have this cancelled ASAP so I can get my Mac OSAP. They assured me (and yes, I asked them several times!) that if I were to go directly to campus that they would cancel my application immediately.

So I arrive at the York campus monday around quarter to one. I wait in some stupid line for 15 minutes so they can tell me to fill out a form and drop it off in some drop box. I asked them how long it would take to process....they assured me it'll be taken care of in 4-6 weeks. EXCUSE ME?!?!?!? I told her I need it cancelled immediately and that when I called in before they told me if I bothered to waste my gas and time to come down that it could be cancelled immediately. So then they assured me...ASSURED, can you tell thats the point of this story?....that if I spoke to some people that they would cancel my application immediately. So, I took a number and settled in.

Fast forward 2 very long, uninteresting hours later when I finally got to speak to some snotty little jerk who then very calmly told me that nobody will cancel my application effective immediately and that it will have to be processed (normally takes about 4-6 weeks or so) but he ASSURED me that this will be taken care of. Ok, so I've lost my patience and demand to see a manager...after a five minute or so discussion about the pros and cons of seeing a manager he grudgingly got off his duff to go get one...promptly returning to tell me that there wasn't one available but that I could sit there like a dummy and wait some more...maybe eventually a manager would come out.

When I told him that this would not be acceptable, in the same stupid, calm, smug way he asked me, for like the tenth time "and what would you like me to do about that?" "Nothing you stupid &%$#!" "Well what would you like me to do at this point, ma'am?" he asked with the same jerky expression "Why, I would like you to cancel my frigging OSAP application!". Ok, so maybe I wasn't quite so...umm, forceful, but its pretty much what I said. I couldn't wait anymore cause my mother had to go back to work, and since I have no money and probably won't for the next couple months, I left with an ASSURANCE from him that the manager would definitely call me as soon as she returns. And, guess what, surprise surprise, still haven't gotten a call.

Ok, sorry, this little I HATE YORK rant has gone on long enough, but suffice it to say that those stupid jerks are seriously impeding my ability to afford school right now. Sigh. Ok, I'll finish my recap a bit later. Right now I need a stiff drink!! ;-)
Just kidding....or am I?!?!?!? muah, ha, ha, ha, ha!! Ok seriously though, gonna go work out and then I'll be back to recap the rest of the week.

Cheers!

Luvin me some Mcluvin

Ok, ok, so hopefully my clue tipped you off, but in case you haven't seen the movie yet, this is gonna be an extremely enthusiastic review of...dun, dun, da dun....SUPERBAD. Ok, first of all, let me just share with you one thing; normally, this type of movie is so not my style. In fact, even the trailer didn't fully impress me. I thought it was somewhat cute, and was willing to give it a chance, but would I have paid money for it? Not really.
Here it is in case you don't know


But then we got all caught up with the idea of the drive in, and the showing that had Superbad and I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry was the only option we had really: one of the other theatres was showing two movies I had never heard of but sounded pretty boring, and the other theatre was showing a bunch of crap. Seriously. So anyway, we kinda accidentally were way too late to catch the first movie showing, so we ended up with Superbad.

And all I kept on thinking was that it wouldn't be so bad, and besides this was our first drive in movie together so at least it would be an experience. Hell, it was my first drive in experience since Twister (I think I was like 8 at the time). Anyway, so at first we were tentative...within 20 seconds I was giggling, but not sure what that would lead to. Within 5 minutes I knew this was gonna be an absolutely amazing movie going experience. If I wasn't laughing uncontrollably, I was tense and worried for the characters. Seriously, this movie was absolutely hilarious. And McLovin....AWESOME....sooooo awesome!

Honestly, one thing that was really awesome about this movie is that they had a bunch of teens playing a bunch of teens. The three main characters are absolute magic all together, and all of the add on characters are supreme. The cops are a riot, and the situations these kids go through are so nonsensical, and yet so entertaining. I give it an enthusiastic, as I said before, 10 thumbs up. Seriously, the trailer doesn't come close to covering just how awesome this movie is. You know how usually the trailer makes the movie seem so much better than it is? In this case, the opposite is true. One of the reasons for this is that there is a whole lot of cursing and adult content. This movie, under NO circumstances, should be seen by anyone under 18. Seriously, I'm so not one of those people, but this movie is rough. There are times where for 15-20 minnutes you hear nothing but profanity. Strangely though, it takes nothing away from the movie.

Ok, I won't say anymore. I can't really without spoiling it for you all. Each and every scene is something magical that you must see for yourself. The actual lines aren't the funny part: its the way they're delivered and the look of those delivering them, and the look on the faces of those receiving them, not to mention the situation at the time. 100% awesome. Seriously, I'm buying this movie the second it gets out. It is seriously in my top 5 favourite movies of all time.

Watch it if you're old enough. Happy Sunday!

Cheers

heheheheheheh

I'm sorry, but I think this commercial is absolutely hilarious. Nobody laughs as hard at this commercial as I do, but I think its too ridiculously funny. Maybe I'll make weekends the funny clip time. Hmmmm... some thinking must go into that. And stay tuned for another awesome movie review....I won't tell you what it is, but I saw the movie last night. Obviously I'm gushing so you can guess I give an enthusiastic 10 thumbs up! I won't give it away yet...suffice it to say that Mcluvin is now my favourite name on the face of the planet...Anyway, on to the commercial!

Cheers!

When Role Playing Goes Too Far

Ok, Ok, so I saw this series of clips before I saw the actual episode. Wow!! This is seriously like, in every sense of the matter, when people take role playing waaayyyy too far!!

Anyway, for your weekend enjoyment, and hopefully, if you like American Dad, and of course you do because you're not deaf dumb and blind, I present to you Jessica's Favourite Weekend Clip...will this become a series? Who knows. Probably not. Remember, lack of follow through...I'm still surprised I even remember my blog half the time (and as you've seen by this week, half the time I clearly don't!)

Anyway, enough of my rabble...ooouuuu that could be a clip for next week!!...enjoy!

What a Week!

OK, so it's been a while, I know, but I have been really busy what with helping Desi out and trying to figure out some school stuff. So first things first; Desi's doing just fine. His surgery went well, and although I think Trillium hospital in Etobicoke is the most disorganized, useless hospital I've EVER been in in my entire life, they managed to return my boyfriend to me healthy and complete save for three little incisions in his abdomen. I don't think in my entire life I've ever been so relieved as I was when I saw Desi being rolled out of the OR. His throat was dry, his eyes puffy and unfocused, and he looked so frail, but he was my Desi, and he was alive, and boy was I relieved. I feel like a punk, but i actually cried tears I was so happy. I guess I feel like I'm making a big deal out of nothing cause it was only hernia surgery, and I'm treating it like it was open heart surgery. But he's my baby and I love him to death, and I guess if that makes me overly protective and sen sensitive, then so be it!

So I stayed at Desi's house until Thursday, by his side at all times. I helped him sit and stand and move around, and got him food and tucked him in. He was my little trooper though, and after about 48 hours wanted to try and do everything himself (stupid!) so I had to be more mindful of him come Wednesday so I could catch him trying to do something himself and intercept before he hurt himself. That Desi!! Anyway, he's OK though. Sneezing hurts him something fierce, but otherwise as long as he doesn't tense his stomach muscles, he's good. Yesterday was his first official outing. We went through Wal Mart and then hit Kool Kats for a few beers. He held up nicely, but the bloatiness became too much eventually and he had to tap out for the night. Its ok, I was already pretty drunk and I had had a really good night anyway! ;-)

Ok, so other than Desi, I also helped move Marg's stuff out of her apartment on Thursday. It was hard not to focus on where I was and why I was moving the stuff and why she wasn't there, but I managed. Especially once we got to the really heavy stuff! And then we get the stuff up to the building, and the dick we call John Boy (the superintendant's husband--he holds no power and is the most useless piece of garbage on the planet) starts up with his shit about how there's only one elevator and we better not fill the elevator with our crap otherwise he's gonna stop us from moving the stuff in and how we're a useless bunch, etc. etc. First of all, it's their bloody fault that the service elevator was broken (has been for weeks now) so either fix the damn thing or shut your damn mouth. Secondly, it's either we incovenience the elevator for like 2 hours or we spend the next six being a nuisance to anyone who wants to get in and out of the elevator. Not that anyone but him was inconvenienced. In fact, the entire building was really nice to us, trying to be really helpful, and upset at the super that the service elevator was down. So there!

Thursday night after moving day I had Carol (the lady driving the truck for us, and also my sisters friends' mother) drop me off at Kool Kats to unwind with a beer. Mmmm, beer, it had been days since I did anything but stare blankly at a TV, and although I love my baby to death, boy was I bored! Besides, it was too late for me to go over to his house, so I decided to take advantage of the time. I had a good time, although the Beautiful Women's Curse struck once again (more about that later...I think maybe I'll do an entire expose on it so you can fully understand all of the facets of this curse. Then again, it'll probably have to be a two part expose since there's so much to cover, I don't know if it can fit all into one post). I got wasted, stayed til last call, woke up with a wicked hangover, and somehow or another only managed to spend $6 the entire night!! LOL!! How do I do it you ask? I have no clue, but maybe thats some of the good back splash of the Beautiful Women's Curse. Again, we'll explore this in my later expose!

Friday, as I said, was really nice. We went to Walmart to get some cheapy frames for this sketch thing we had made in one of those booths when we were in some city in ontario when Desi was travelling for his job. Wait...nope, doesn't say on the picture which city, but I think it was probably Bellville. Oh well, anyway, its a nice picture. I'll add it to my blog once my home PC is back up and running so I can use my scanner. I could load the software onto my laptop, but the more programs, the more polluted the hard drive, the slower and crappier the laptop becomes. Anyway, afterwards we went to Kool Kats, and were having a nice little conversation when one of my really good friends, incidentally named Desmond as well, came in with Ray and a bunch of other people. I was like holy crap, long time no see, because you see Dez (my friend) had an actual girlfriend for the past 8 months and was beyond whipped. They had some crazy problems and apparently she gets violent, cause his necks all scratched up, but they broke up, and hopefully for good this time, so he was able to go out and see someone other than her for once. Good job Dez, stay strong, and find a girl who uses her claws for good, not evil!!

Ok, so thats about it really. Today I'm gonna head to the bank and cash some of my birthday money (woo hoo!!) and try to fix up some stuff for my basement apartment (which by the way is not going to be done on time...stupid Michael!)and finally...and here's the best part....because my birthday is in the month of August, Lucy's Seafood (the one on Milcreek) is gonna give me a free meal (as long as we buy another one, which is fine since generally Desi and I do tend to eat 2 separate meals when we go out to a restaurant!) Seriously, they sent me a letter in the mail, and they sent Desi one too in November. Awesome eh?

Anyway, to all a good weekend, and Michelle, I'm thinking September 4th?? Thats the Soc Sci Faculty day thing (so I've just received a letter informing me) but I have a serious feeling I'm gonna feel waaayyyy to old to participate in like 90% of the things they wanna do. Plus there's a lot of extra time after they're done and stuff. Anyway, let me know.

Sorry, I lost focus there. Where was I again? Oh yeah

Cheers

I'm baaaccckkk

Hey Y'all, I'm back!! We ended up in a little cottage only a few minutes walk from beach number 5 at Wasaga. It was a cute little blue cottage, and was actually more of a townhouse because it was in the middle of two other cottages and was attached on both sides. Across from us there were 3 cottages that were completely detached, but really considering how close they actually were to one another, they may as well have been attached. The owner owned a gigantic mansion of a house in the middle of the two rows of cottages, and the backyard was gigantic (we all shared the backyard, which was nice). For some reason the insects really enjoyed our cottage doorway, and made a point of always doing something else gross and distracting while being directly on our door and blocking our entry (yes, I AM terrified of bugs....ok, anything that flies, bites, or has millions of legs or is a spider...or is poisonous...I'm fine with the rest of them though....)

Otherwise, our location was awesome and we spent a couple nights hanging out at our personal picnic table playing cards or dominoes, and chatting away. (OK, and drinking away!! LOL). Daytime we went down to the main beach and did some wading, and some beach walking. We shopped for about five minutes but the strip is so small...I swear the strip was alot bigger when I was younger. I remember it was a long magical paradise covered with interesting shops, bars, beautiful people, and beautiful cars. This past week, it was a rinky dink affair covered with rinky dink bars (3) and a bunch of pathetic shops and a stitches. It was really quite disappointing. I didn't go after my 15th birthday, so I guess maybe it was just a perception thing. I find often times when I return to something as an adult that I thought was wonderous as a child I'm always a wee bit disappointed.

But without the strip I had such an awesome time. We talked, we laughed, we had a few drinks at the bars on the strip and laughed at the wickedly strong wind that refused to let up some days, and we'd laugh at the fact that they had these plastic things blocking the wind from the bar patio and yet our drinks always ended being full of sand anyway. Oh, and I wouldn't recommend going to Banana's, but Dardanella's (i think thats what it is at least) has one of the most delicious mushroom swiss burgers ever! There was this little bar down the street from our cottage (did I tell you what it was called??? Big Oaks..its on 45th street near mosely st) and the first night we went there it sucked. Large. But the last time we went it was a lot of fun. If you ever end up in that area check it out (especially on a friday). It was good hick bar fun!!

Seriously, walking through the water, or through shifty, slidy, sand is really peaceful. I love looking down the beach and hearing the waves and feeling the sun. So relaxing. So rejuvenating. And Desi and I had such a great time even when we were just hanging out together in our cottage. We did what we wanted when we wanted. We watched some good shows (finale of So You Think You Can Dance...GO SABRE!!!) had some great conversation, and got to be lazy and comfy with each other. It really was an amazing week, and although we're dead broke now and can't do anything else for the rest of the summer, it was absolutely 100% worth it. I would do it again in a heartbeat (only this time bring some bug repellant).

So, I'm sure there's even more to tell you, and when we develop the photo's and I post em I'll elaborate on certain days and themes.

For now though, I gotta head off to bed. Gotta be out of my house at five AM tomorrow for Desi's operation. My prayers are with him right now. I love my baby and I hope he'll be OK. I know he will be. But I still worry. After all, he's my baby.

Hope you all are well.

have a happy Monday!!

Cheers

Stress

Ahhh, the beautiful stress of getting prepared to go to my dream University. Well, one of em at the top 2...I wanted either Laurier, which my friends Keithan and Chelsea got to go to...by the way, I think they graduated already, so congrats guys!...or to McMaster. I technically had the dream to go to Laurier all my life because they had a pool and I thought that was like the awesomest thing when I was 10, but thats neither here nor there. Anyway, so back to McMaster. I've been struggling with rearranging my schedule, trying to drop half of my schedule and replace it with level 2 courses. I finally got the prerequisite waiver I needed for level 1 calculus (woo hoo!!!) so now I gotta replace the prerequisite with another course, and replace one other course, and then I'm finally done! Except today a course I really wanted to take, death and dying in western society, opened up except there a prerequisite that says I have to be in level 2, but I know they'll waive that because I've taken my college courses already, but now I have to wait til monday, which means of course the course will be full by then....oh joy, oh bliss!!
Oh, not to mention the fact that I'm going away next week, so hopefully we'll get a place with the internet so I can still make changes from there!

Seriously though, I really am looking forward to having everything straightened out and actually starting my first day. My cousin's going to give me a tour of the campus so I won't be terribly lost my first day, and as soon as they give me my GO pass thing I'll take a couple of test runs to and from school so I know what I'm expecting. I think I really need a new laptop though. My battery life actually really sucks, and I just bought it not even 3 weeks ago. The guy in the store told me that it had between 5 and 6 hours and I get just barely over 2!! Anybody know if thats like some flaw with my specific laptop or not? I don't know, even our much older laptop from the same company gets like 4 hours. Hmmmm....

But I think whats probably most stressful at this time is trying to get my basement together. We have like 10 billion things to order and like 4 hours to do it. I have no idea how we're going to manage. :-S probably won't go so well. Well, we'll see about that. But I guess I can't worry too much about that because I won't have quite so much pressure if I don't go away tomorrow, and I'm not sure how we're going to manage that since we still don't have anywhere to actually stay or anything, but for some reason or another we have these delusions of grandeur that we'll be able to find somewhere that will be willing to rent us their cottage for the week, starting tomorrow, and for a reasonable price. Go Team!! So yeah, I don't know about cottage, hopefully we'll manage but I've been think hotel near the beach kind of thing. If you have suggestions over the next, say, 6 hours, I'd be delighted to hear it. Anyway, Desi's last day was yesterday, NO MORE STUPID INSTALLS!!! lol!! Congratulations honey on that one. Now you can enjoy the life of the comfortably unemployed with me ;-) Yeah, thats about all. Wait....no.....hmmmm......yeah, no, thats about all. Off for some food and then hopefully we'll be ready to go hustle, hustle, hustle!!

Cheers y'all! Happy Weekend!

Computers Suck

Ok, so after my post yesterday, and subsequent comments yesterday and today, I have drained whatever brain and typing energy I have. So, if you wanna get in to something serious or whatever, this isn't the post--read the previous post and the comments that follow. I've decided to make this nice and simple. Computers suck. No really, regardless of the company, regardless of what they say the RAM or processor or whatever, they all suck. I swear if this laptop shuts down to that stupid blue screen one more time I's seriously gonna chuck it out a window. Ok, maybe not. But only because its not mine...and mine doesn't suck. So anyway, this is my comedic relief for today. For those of you who know me, I am in love (seriously) with the Mac PC commercials, and I love the Marvel/DC spoof on it. I also happen to love South Park, which did a cute little spoof of their own. Please enjoy, and have a great day!

Cheers

Is Dirrty really dirty?

Ok, so I thought I would post the video first for those of you who aren't into Christina and haven't seen the video. I'm sure you've heard the controversy about the video though, as not only did it start years ago, but to my surprise only a couple of weeks ago I overheard people actually having a discussion about how horrible Christina Aguilera was for coming out with the Dirrty video.

Ok, I first want to express that I am so on Christina's side with this. Like really, are people honestly serious when they say that this video is almost pornographic? I personally think the video for Britney's Slave is alot more suggestive and kind of perverted. That could just be my personal bias, but come on now...'Hit me Baby One More Time'? You don't think having a bunch of 10 year olds singing those lyrics out and trying to dress just like Britney did is slightly more upsetting? Or worse, little girls singing out that they're a slave for the boys while Britney moans in the background as though she's in some extended, annoyingly loud orgasm? Nobody seemed to have a problem with that though...hmmmm...but Christina's the slut...hmmm...

Not to mention all the rock and rap videos that exploit near naked women all the time, featuring them doing much more suggestive things than just a choreographed dance with a group of people. Christina didn't set a precedence here, and she didn't even go to the extremes that some others have gone to...Britney, Madonna, Janet Jackson, Mariah Carey (in case your confused with this one, think Honey with Mariah in an almost invisible teenie weenie bikini crawling out of the sea in a very, very sexual way)...I mean really, the list goes on.

I could rehash each and every argument I have that are pro-Dirrty, but really I'm sure you've heard em all already, and the video was released so long ago, I can't see why anyone would want to fully re examine the issue all over again. But really, I brought this all up to bring up one point: How in the hell can anyone still care at all, whatsoever, about this video when there is so much else to focus on? Lindsay Lohan, Paris Hilton, and Nicole Richie are all repeat offender drunk drivers, rehab goers, relapsing back to drug and alcohol abuse, flashing their private parts to the world almost as though its a joke...

I mean really, if you want to be concerned about something, don't be concerned about the 4-5 minute video some star does that will stay popular for all of 2 weeks. Be concerned about the stars we let into our homes and into our childrens hearts that live each and every day a life that is irresponsible, troubled, immoral (think sex videos), etc., and very, very public that for god knows what reason we as a society choose to glamorize. And worse, the children get to see that ultimately there are no real consequences for these illegal, irreprehensible actions commited by their idols. Why would they not want to be just like them?

What do you think about all this?

Cheers

What a Weekend!!!!

Ok, so to start off with, Caribana was AWESOME...as expected. We walked for like 5000 hours to get to a point where we could be in the street next to the parade without having to pay or just be behind a fence. The music was great, the costumes were great, the vibe was great...it was a lot of fun. Some criticisms this year that didn't happen last year were that it took, if you were standing still, sometimes 20 minutes for another float to get to you, or even to be within hearing distance of either the float in front of or behind you.

I was also not happy with the way the people who were not part of the parade behaved, which was probably a big contributing factor as to what the delay between floats was all about. Seriously, it was sad how non curteous these people were!! Walking from one side of the street to the other in front of the moving truck who has been honking for the past 10 minutes trying to move forward! Like seriously people, behave yourselves, this is the reason why they have the parade all fenced off and you have to pull some kind of daredevil moves to get near it....people don't use their common sense or common courtesy when given free will to do as they please!

Ok, but enough of that rant...even with the mini flaws, it was still an awesome time! We danced, laughed, talked, jumped...for hours and hours! It was an absolutely awesome experience! Pictures will be posted to my website soon (I'll let you know) and I'll import some into the blog once their all posted!

Ok, so that was Saturday. Sunday was fun. I went with my baby sister to see the Bratz movie...ok, I know how pathetic this sounds, but it was seriously great! Then again, it is sooo my kind of movie, what with the high school kids, the cliques, the nonsensical problems that anyone could solve with their eyes closed, the conceited, supervillan beauty queen, the fact that friendship perseveres through all...ah! So sweet! Really, definitely a good watch...seriously though, for those of you who don't love wonderful things, my boyfriend said it wasn't a horrible movie to watch overall, so check it out!!

In case you haven't heard of it, here's the trailer.


And then Monday. Ok, so I've figured out that I'm just about the easiest person on the face of the planet to surprise..I honestly just expect it so little that it never even occurs to me, even when things around me become suspicious, that there could be a surprise in the works for me. So, Monday my mom, and everyone else, threw me a surprise party for my birthday! I honestly didn't have any idea what was going on. My mom told me that my uncle and his family were gonna stay over the night before, which they do occasionally, so nothing weird there, and when there was a whole bunch of food in the fridge, I just figured that they were going to have a barbeque without me, which happens, sadly, often enough, so again didn't get it.

The night before when my sister asked me 500 times if I knew what was happening tomorrow...still nothing. When the plan went askew and people kept arriving at the house with me standing right there, just didn't process. When one person actually wished me happy birthday although my birthday had already passed on thursday and that person had already said happy birthday to me then? Nada. When I came downstairs after my shower and they screamed surprise and I saw the balloons and stuff...finally got it...see, told ya, the easiest person to surprise!!

My party was awesome, my whole family was there and in a very loving, family oriented mood. We played Twister and Uno, shared jokes and laughs over delicious barbecue. I had such an awesome time having all my family share with each other, speak to eachother...I guess the general word is fellowship. Oh, and my sister baked me a cake without eggs...so chocolatey delicious!! Sooo delicious! Seriously, my baby sister is seriously talented when it comes to baking! Even people who don't like chocolate cake at it and thought it was delicious! I have pictures of everything too, so once their developed they'll be going on my site and I'll post some on the blog too!

Anyway, that was my weekend! I had a great time and I thank everyone who participated in it for making it such a memorable, awesome weekend! Who would have thought I would have been saying this with all thats happening right now? Anyway, to all a great week

Cheers

Caribana!!

Ok, so I'm about to take a trip downtown to, you guessed it, Caribana!!! I was planning on going for my birthday this year, and regardless of whats happening I think its important to me at least that I still go. Its gonna be really fun. Last year we went with someone (Ok, Aliya...sorry girl, but it was toooo funny!!)who had never been to the parade, so she wore like 12 inch heels! Boy, were her feet sore afterwards. And Desi and I are so the marching types so we followed that parade for a loong time, with her barely able to stumble along behind us. lol. Ahhh, good times!! Yeah, so anyway, this time we're going just the two of us, and its gonna be some crazy fun! Just gotta finish getting ready, pick up some Rev (what else could you drink during the caribana day parade?) and then we're off!

Let you know how it goes. For anyone who hasn't heard of caribana, (again, do you live under a rock in a cave on mars?) I'm not about to try to give a mini history lesson to you...this is a short clip taken from Caribana 2006 that should give you an idea of what the sights and sounds are like!


Anyway, to all, a good weekend!
Cheers

The Power of Family

Sorry I haven't kept up over the past couple days with my blog entries...its been really hectic what with preparing for the funeral and all. Yesterday was the funeral, and incidentally, my birthday as well. I was really upset about the date when I heard about it, but what can you do?

So anyway, the service was really nice, everyone had some beautiful words to say, and we all cried fiercely during the viewing period. Pretty much what you'd expect at a funeral for someone who was well loved by many people. All of our hard work came together beautifully, and the little touches were what made it all so special. That and being surrounded by family.

I was struck yesterday by the power of family. I think that family ties are stronger than anything else known to man. I don't just mean the family you are born into, but also the family you choose, the family that chooses you, and the family you one day realise you've fallen into. Sometimes you marry into a family, sometimes someone marries into your family, and sometimes you just become absorbed into a family after a brief meeting that you didn't think meant all that much at the time.

But regardless of how they become your family, i think that the bond you feel with your family is one of a kind. It doesn't matter whether you are in a fight with one member, or have been in a fight for years with another, in times of pain and trials they are always the ones you turn to, the ones you can always lean on, and the ones who bring you the greatest comfort and relief.

I saw an amazing thing through this painful time-- I saw my family, all the assorted members of it, pull together to support one another. My parents, who cannot even stand to be in the same room 90% of the time, ended up sharing old jokes over dishes. Everyone was all in unison, actually speaking to eachother when some of them haven't even said hi to each other in years. Not even a few months ago during my uncles 10 year memorial did they speak to eachtother, but in this time of extreme pain they were able to all band together and give each other the support and love that they needed.

My parents and my family was so amazing during this time; so supportive and understanding, regardless of what they were all feeling. But one thing that blew me away more so was a large part of my family that I haven't seen in soo long. They are actually my baby sisters family. But when I was younger, they took me in as though I had always been there and treated me like family. I had so many wonderful memories with them, and then one day i didn't see them anymore. I was worried about how they would treat me when we did all come together.

And it was amazing. They treated me as though not a single day had gone by since they saw me last. They were just as caring and wonderful to me as they had always been, as they were being to their family...as though nothing at all had changed. I was their family as much as they were mine. That really filled my heart, took some of the ache away. The way they treated my blood family was just the same. I just felt so overcome by how wonderful people can be, how wonderful family can be.

I thought my birthday was going to be the worst day of my life, but the funeral, and after the funeral feels like 2 totally different days altogether. Amd the part that I got to spend with family is priceless. To not only sense all that love and care around me, but to feel it, was uplifting, and made me see the silver lining on this very dark cloud.

Thank you, family, for filling my heart, yesterday, and everyday before and after it.
I love you all

Cheers

P.S. All my friends are absolutely awesome too!

Spider Pig, Spider Pig....

Ok, so unless you live under a rock in a cave on Mars and have been struck deaf, dumb, and blind, then you know that this blog entry is gonna be about...dun, dun, da-dun...the SIMPSONS MOVIE!!

Ok, so I went to see the movie yesterday with my boyfriend and the Rona boys...we decided that it had to be an event, of course, cause its the SIMPSONS MOVIE!! So 8 of us all trecked out to Islington and Queensway to the cineplex there. Why you ask? We don't know since the majority of people there live in Meadowvale, but thats fine. Maybe thats how we managed to only get there 20 minutes before the movie started and were still able to all sit together!

So anyway, on to the movie!! Awesome! I won't spoil anything for you by giving any details, but I can tell you I was most definitely impressed by the movie. Primarily because it was actually a movie, not just an extended episode, or worse like the Family Guy movie, 3 episodes stuck together that they now break up all the time and play for free on TV.

Anyway, there's a real plot, they keep true to all the Simpsons character attitudes and behaviours, and somehow or another manage to give the movie all the elements that a good, I repeat GOOD, comedy movie has to offer. Its not consistent jokes, or hilarious jokes surrounded by minutes of waiting for the next joke...when you weren't laughing you actually cared about the plot and wondered how they were gonna solve all the problems, and all the jokes were appropriate and actually aided in plot and character development. And they actually bother to connect all the things that happen in the movie to other things....you know, the concept of follow through!

I personally give it an enthusiatic 5 thumbs up and recommend it for everyone! There are definitely a few surprises along the way, and trust me, you haven't heard or seen all the good parts just cause you've seen the previews, like most other movies nowadays!!

A word to the wise...they do actually tell jokes all the way through the credits, even after you think the jokes are over, so if you're not in a hurry as you're leaving, rather than waiting in line for ten minutes to try and file out of the theatre with all the others, sit tight and enjoy the jokes til the end of the credits!

Anyway, let me know what you think of it when you see you! (And you better!!)
lol

(and for those of you from the cave in Mars, here's one of the trailers)


Cheers

So, to explain...

Ok, so I thought maybe what I should do is explain where I was coming from when I said that I think saying that you know exactly what someone's going through, or that you understand what they're going through, is a false statement.

First off, the reasoning is illogical. If there are 2 people who each have they're dog die on exactly the same day, can you say that one knows what the other is going through? At first glance it may seem that way, but it really isn't. That dog could mean to one family that they've lost a member of their family, one that will be loved and missed, and they will be able to recall good times with that dog. To the other, it may be that this dog was the bond holding their family together because the dog was found at their doorstep on the first christmas after they had recently lost a newborn baby, and the dog filled the void like nothing else could.

Ok, so from here I'm sure you could say to yourself, well what if both families had the exact same affection for the dog with generally the exact same circumstances. The answer to this brings me to my second point. Each individual has different experiences than any other, and those experiences affect how they think, feel, and react to the world. So therefore two families can have the exact same affection for said dog, but each moment each person in each respective family has lived has made them into the people they are, and therefore will impact the way in which the dogs passing affects them.

And thirdly, a persons general disposition and thought process will also affect the way in which they react to the dog passing. Lets take the second example, where the dog was the family's glue. If family one thinks that teh dog was their glue, and was an angel sent by God to help them through a difficult time, their feelings toward the dog's passing will be entirely different than the family who thinks that God is against them and takes all that is good from them. See my point?

Not to mention any other factor that may come into play, of which I won't mention all, because I couldn't consider them all, but include the dogs health at the time, the ways in which each family grieves, the other difficulties surronding the dogs passing such as financial or emotional troubles, external support systems....

And keep in mind that I only used this one example as far as what the dogs meant to each respective family. If you take all of these things into account, and the countless combinations of each, how can you ever think you know exactly what someone else is going through? And even if someone tried to explain they're thoughts and feelings, they wouldn't even be aware of some of the other circumstances impacting their thoughts and feelings and reactions. So how could you think, ever, that you actually understand?

Just some food for thought here, but when someone is going through a situation, I think it would be very unwise for one to utter these words. Just listen, respect their wishes if they need to be alone, try to sympathise, and let them know that you care. Thats the most you can do. Otherwise you get into the dialogue of "..no, you don't understand because...". And why stress your friend out with having to try to expain to you exactly what they're going through and feeling at the time? Suffice it to say you'll never really understand. And you don't have to...you're not expected to.

No You Don't !!!!

Don't you just hate when someone has the nerve to say to you "I know exactly what you're going through". Even for someone to say that they understand what you're going through I think is somewhat innaccurate, but I don't find it offensive. Most of the time...Ok, fine, I only don't find it offensive if it comes from one of my loved ones or good friends. So I'm a little touchy about certain things. Its just cause I'm deep and very emotionally sensitive (try not to burst out laughing!)

So anyway, I start the blog off in this way cause just the other day (Thursday to be exact) I had this jerk say that he knows exactly what I'm going through, and then had the nerve to continue on by telling me not only what I should be doing right now, but HOW I SHOULD BE FEELING!!!!! All I was thinking was you gotta be fricking kidding me here, but no no, the jerk wouldn't back off, wouldn't go away, wouldn't understand the concept that when someone's grieving you respect their wishes and give them their space if they need it cause everyone deals with grief differently, and everyone goes through different stages at different times.

But no, he (I mean stupid jerk face...the more I think of him again, the worse his new name becomes!) decided to tell me I have no right to be out having a drink trying to relax ON A THURSDAY if I wasn't in the mood to sit there and socialize with him, and be in a laughing, joking mood. I'd like, at this point, to share with you that I can barely tolerate him when I'm having a great day, let alone when I'm not. Then, I swear the jerk actually wanted to fight me cause I told him to f*** off cause quite frankly I was tired of this 10 minute long conversation we were having about whether he should leave me alone or not, and him, like the friend only in a much more ignorant way, telling me that ohhh, its all a part of life so just deal with it...EXCUSE ME?!?!?!?!?!
Ever feel like knocking someone out?


Even if I was feeling just peachy, even if nothing was bothering me, even if I had an absolutely fantastic life, if I'm not in the mood to have a conversation with anyone, I'm not having a conversation with anyone. If I want to sit absolutely silently by myself and not speak to anyone except to nod a greeting of hello, thats my damn right. And I'll be damned if someone tries to tell me that I can't do that while having a beer at a bar...I don't go to the bar for people, I go for BEER! And the fact that this freak actually was trying to force me to socialize with him shows just how pathetic and, well, pathetic the jerk really was.

So, I just wanted to point out today, my friends, how absolutely pathetic and rude, and selfish, and disrespectful some people can really be. Like come on, where was he raised? In a cave by a pack of wolves? Have some frigging respect! No, I'm wrong. I know it. That was so mean of me....wolves actually mourn and have some respect...I know, Hyenas!! He was raised by hyenas!! Anyway, enough for now

Cheers

This Sucks

Didn't want to leave you hanging, so I thought I'd let you know I may not be writing for a few days, and if I do it may not be as fascinating and riviting as usual!! Seriously though, on a very serious note, I just wanted to share the concept that death sucks, no matter how it happens, and it always sucks more when it affects your own life. Being sad sucks too. In fact, I'm going to say being sad sucks a whole lot more than death does.

I'm really starting to think that everything sucks, and I wonder why it is that everything sucks as much as it does. Work sucks, school sucks, boyfriend sucks, friends suck, most movies nowadays suck. I wonder whether everything sucks, or whether my attitude sucks. Probably a combination of both, really. But I wonder whether I'd have such a bad attitude to begin with if everything didn't suck to begin with. I can remember times when I didn't have such a bad attitude toward everything...i was about 4, and life was always magical and wonderful! (if you're interested in more of my rant about how childhood is awesome and adulthood sucks (or does it?!?!) visit my Digital Stories page and chose the one titled Aging Crisis). Honestly watching the story might show you that I'm not actually always as cynical and critical as I am being right now.

To tell you the truth...my yesterday sucked, and the reason it sucked is because it started in the way every other day does, only this time it ended in such a sucky way, it really made me see not the silver lining on every cloud, but the dark, stormy undertone on them.....grrr....Ok, thanks for hearing out my vent. That actually made me feel a bit better....I guess whats always frustrating is that you know that the rest of life doesn't suck and if this situation didn't happen, you would still think life was fine, and one day you'll get past this pain, but today....today everything sucks, and it will until you feel better. God, I hope thats sooner rather than later. Especially for the others in this situation. They'll need this rant more than I did.

If you don't hear from me, I hope all is well with you, and I will get back as soon as possible (hopefully tomorrow with a better disposition!)

For now, I found nice, pathetic sounding country song that almost cheers me up with how sad sounding it is...enjoy


Cheers

What's my Philosophy?

Ok, so I was reading through the roblog today, which is really good and you should read it, but anyway, i was reading through it, and I was thinking to myself...whats my vision? I mean, for my blog? I've titled it philosophical reflection, the address is the Real JC Philosophy....shouldn't I have a philosophy that I'm functioning on? Some set of rules, thoughts, or regulations that are like the modus operandi while posting to the blog?

(Oh, by the way, if I've used any terminology incorrectly, or if I do in the future, I apologize...I like to use big words, especially if I only have a very, very vague concept of what they mean...if I use it in the right context it makes me sound smarter doesn't it? And more so, during an argument, when you use words like that it helps you to win a fight if the person you are arguing against has absolutely no idea what the word you said meant cause you can start expanding thea meaning of this word to cover every point you have. And if the person you are arguing against DOES know what the word means, don't panic. Stand firm to the concept that as long as you don't let them force you into revealing what you THINK the definition of the word is, they have absolutely no proof whatsoever that you're just bluffing. Trust me, stand firm, and eventually they will, almost by accident, reveal the definition of the word to you, in a way similar to this:

"What the hell are you talking about? _________means __________ not (insert what you were implying it meant here) !

This is where you can win, but only if you play your cards right! You can:
a)say I know...that's what I was saying (and then quickly twist your own words around to fit the definition your opponent has graciously given you ;-), or
b)Deny that the definition they gave you for the word applies to the situation that you are referring to now...i.e., take said word's definition, say how it could apply in the way in which they were saying, but it can also be looked at in this way, and that the way you present it is more accurate given the situation.

Option A works best for the new at this, so I would say this is what the majority should be using. B is seriously for the super talented, definitely requires advanced talent, so don't use unless you have already mastered at least the skill of double talking!)

Don't, however, follow Stan Smith's way of trying to win an argument...you'll never be successful


Ok, so where was I? oh, right, the philosophy thing? I wonder what my philosophy is? I don't know, I guess maybe those who had a philosophy at the time weren't calling their philosophy a philosophy, and most of those that are self professed philosophers who try to tell everyone else their philosophy are either scam artists, cult leaders, or crazy (hmmmm....no, i won't go there...today!). Well, I guess I don't have much to write then right now...sorry guys! :-( Don't worry, I'll try to get in more than a couple paragraphs next time...

Cheers

P.S. If anyone is interested, which of course I am, the new Cosmo just came in the mail!!! Yayyy!! i know you're all excited for me! lol

Impressionable

Oops!! I had a feeling something like this would happen; I would get all excited cause I started something new, but then somehow through the confusion of the next 12 hours (and bear in mind I pretty much do nothing all day!) I would forget about the insignificant details of the task I started...for example, following through with this whole BLOG thing and actually entering something in for yesterday. I guess thats always been my problem, in a nutshell...no follow through! Seriously...once I even turned the oven off halfway through baking chicken cause I could not be bothered to wait for it to finish (there was probably only like 25 minutes left!)

Ok, but anyway, again enough with this ranting of mine, I am supposed to be trying to share something with you all. Hmmm...well, I did get a new laptop yesterday! Its kinda neat, even has the webcam thing...thinking of starting a video blog....

Ok, obviously sharing is not my cup of tea. I clearly have such a boring life that nobody at all would care, whatsoever, if I tried to share all the details of it with you. That being said, I think that what I THINK about everyone elses lives is absolutely fascinating! yeah....I think I am going to stick to that! Ohhhh...I did want to let you know though, that I figured out why I started a blog...after hearing of a friends RobLog on facebook.....I HATE FACEBOOK!!! (but more on that later)...and the following he was getting, I thought it might be interesting to try one out myself.

To tell you the truth, I am one of the most impressionable people on the face of the planet! Seriously! Although I, personally, am so happy reality TV exists, I have had numerous people watch a show with me dreading what my response will be...after watching American Inventor, I had ALWAYS been an inventor, and had always had such good ideas...I start to sing during the commercials for American Idol, start talking of how talented a cheerleader I was and how if only I had the opportunity that those on So You Think You Can Dance have how I would be a star....and you cannot forget that my number one passion has always been to be a model while I am watching Canadas Next Top Model (or actress if we are watching Youre The One I Want!).

Sometimes my ridiculous comments are true, most of them in fact. Or, at least, I should say they WERE true, back before all my hopes and dreams were crushed...or, probably more accurately when I realised that you have to actually put in some kind of effort in order to be really talented at something and then signed or discovered by someone. Whatever, same dif!! Anyway, the whole point being is that reality TV is like my crack...every time I watch it I see all the possibilities my life could possibly hold if only, and heres the kicker, I could have the opportunity that those people have....pretty delusional huhÉ Especially given that I stopped trying to persue those dreams, like, at least 6 years ago!! Anyway, enough of this for today!

Cheers!!

A New Adventure

Ok, so this is my first Blog ever. Not that I was against blogging, it was just that I couldn't really understand the hysteria behind certain events surrounding blogs. For example-the situation involving lonelygirl15's blog on YouTube. Who cares that she was just an actress reading a script? Honestly? Ok, I get that blogs in and of themselves are supposed to be personal expressions of ones thoughts and feelings and ideas, etc., but really, why does it matter so deeply to everyone that this girl and her associate were fibbing?

Ok, in case you have no idea what I'm talking about, here's one of her video blogs from youtube


Really, I find it sad that so many people used this '15 year old girl's' life as some type of gospel as to how life is or what they should do and feel. I think that's really the issue here; far too many people are relying on the media, and others, to tell them how they should feel about things, what they should do with their lives, and what they should think about everything. Ok, be disappointed that this life you were following that you found fascinating was fabricated, but only in the same way you are disappointed when you find out that shows like CSI aren't based on reality. But to be so morally outraged? Seriously, and I don't want to offend anyone, but get a life!

Ok, all of that being said, I wanted to start off this blog by letting everyone know exactly why I'm doing it. And obviously, given my mini-rant here, it's clearly not to influence other people's lives, or to have others validate my thoughts and feelings by trying to live like I do, or do the things I do. I just really want the opportunity to share my thoughts and feelings, and like many others I feel that writing them down is much a much more effective catharsis than getting all muddled up trying to bring the words straight from thought to verbal word without a medium in between.

I hope you enjoy reading this blog. But, as I'm sure you can tell from this first message, I'm very opinionated and not shy at all about it. And really, I hope never to offend anyone, but at the same time I couldn't care less whether someone finds my feelings offensive or not. They're my feelings, not yours, if you don't like 'em, don't read 'em. Feel free to respond to anything and everything I say. Its always interesting to get a second opinion.

Cheers!