I think my brain is melting.....

...and it's not what you think, honestly. I know most of you already have a preconceived notion that I'm about to complain about how heavy my courseload is right now, and how maybe I was a bit premature in saying that I wanted back into school. Some of you may think that I'll say that I've actually bothered to do some reading and that already I'm overloaded after my "stressful" summer school :-p. Some of you may go on to elaborate on the more ridiculous points of this, all around the same line.

Well to all you poop heads I just want to say, ha ha, you are SO dead wrong!! :-p NOt just saying that to win, either. I honestly am in love with school so far. I love all more courses, I love focusing on my major, I love all my professors...heck I honestly don't really mind all too much (not ALL too much ;-))the early start times. Getting school out of the way early on in the day is nice because it frees up more time in the afternoon for me when I would actually be awake and wanting to do something!

So what is it then you ask? Why is it that my brain is melting and that I've threatened at least 3 people to help me out with this situation or else? Well quite frankly it's because I am dead bored and I don't see how I'm gonna kill this last 25 minutes. Lets take a minute to explain. You see, class started today at 8:30. And then I had a total of 4 classes back to back in a row. Which was all fine. Those classes ended (I'm sure you can do the simple math yourself, but it's my story damn it!!) at 12:30, 12 which means that I have officially now been waiting 4.5 hours for my last class. I feel like I'm not gonna make it :-P

SOOOOOOOOOOOO bored. Seriously. I love school but right now I have a feeling I'm about to drop this whole monday coginitive psych deal in favour of getting home before 3. Seriously. Or maybe I just need to make some friends. Maybe I need a miracle to make them change the time of that schedule. Probably won't happen. Alrihty then, this ate up what? Just under 4 minutes by the time I'm done this sentence or so? "Screw it, I'm getting cheese fries"

Cheers

PS a million dollars to the person who can tell me where this quote is from (I already know I'm just testing you!0
PPS Ohhhhh, maybe I forgot to say that million is only good in monopoly and only after about 25 years or so, k? ;-P

For real my peeps (lol...I said peeps)

Cheers

This commercial kills me...

And it never gets any less funny the more I watch it, so I decided to share with you. It's been a very long while since I posted a video, so enjoy it!



Happy Labour Day Weekend everyone!
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Summer's Over

Boooo!!! Back to our regular 8-10 months of winter. Already. I can't believe how quickly the summer sped right past me. Already there's a chill in the air at night, and you can smell the winter. Already women are trading in their mini skirts for jeans. Already my store has put transitional merchandise on sale to make room for the rapidly approaching fall. Already!! I don't think I'll ever get used to this stupid 2 months of summer thing. And don't tell me about the technicalities that summer is actually 3 months long and blah blah blah cause to me summer isn't defined by calendar days, it's defined by warmth. And it's never warm for more than two months. Normally you only get about 5 weeks guaranteed.

Ok ok, so now that I've ranted about why summer being over sucks, lets cover some of the positives. A: I am getting very, very tired of the whole working thing. I miss school, I miss being a student. Deeply. So I am delighted school will be starting next week and I'll only be working a couple of days per week. Woo Hoo!!! Actually, I was having this discussion with someone, and what I've come up with is that I get bored very easily. 4 months of working and I'll be more than ready to go back to school. 4 months of school and I'll be dying for the easy breezy monotony of work life. That's just the way things go with me; never satisfied for all that long.

But, what's even more awesome is that all my hard work (ok, maybe "hard work" is stretching it slightly :-p)I got into my program!! Woo hoo!! Honours Psychology here I come! 2 years of college and one year of University...all to get me to this moment in time. There were so many times I thought maybe that it would never happen, that I could never get into the program, that fate would always prevent me from doing so. I am so happy and so relieved. I feel like life is really about to start. Like finally my life is worth something, working hard in school, applying myself, learning new things...it's all going to be worth something in the end. Finally!!

So with all of that being said I'm gonna go take a nap. Lol...I figure I might as well take full advantage of the lazy times while they're still around :-D

For everyone else starting school in the next couple weeks, enjoy your last summer holiday weekend and have a happy, prosperous school year!

Cheers

Love your body....Hate compressed calculus

It's funny actually because I honestly did entirely forget I even owned a blog until somebody brought it to my attention today that they were waiting patiently for my next entry. So I've decided to endulge you all once again and give you one of my infamous mini rants.

So yes, I am now employed and going to school full time...and what an adventure that is ending up being. I feel at times that I am like a chicken with its head cut off, like there just isn't enough hours in the day for me to get everything done. I guess I could try and slack a little more in my social life, but if I did that then my social life would be entirely non existent. :-s

Actually, I seriously think I am starting to suffer from exhaustion. My body is just giving out and seemingly shutting down. I need to find a way to fit in more sleep without entirely failing out of school. Speaking of school...I must say that whatever jackass made up this calculus schedule was...well...a jackass. Realistically unless you breathe, eat, sleep, and poop calculus there's no way possible that you can keep up with the schedule. Seriously. I have a feeling next semester I will be taking it again just to upgrade my mark. Stupid McMaster Calculus!

Ok, so one thing I have noticed about women since starting work is that we are all ridiculously hard on ourselves and our bodies. The nonsensical things I hear come out of some of my customers mouths, the ridiculous things they think and see about their bodies drives me absolutely batty. I mean honestly, I get that not every part of your body is your favourite, and yes you should definitely dress your body type properly.

But damn y'all, stop being SO HARD on yourself. Sure, maybe you got some extra skin on your upper arms, it doesn't mean the shortest sleeve you can wear is three-quarter length. And sure, you got a bit of a pooch to your tummy, doesn't mean every shirt you wear should be 3 sizes too big so it fits like a muumuu (did I spell that right?!? who knows :-p) I mean really, I'm not tiny, I'm not perfect, I got me my bingo wings, belly bulge, and thigh cellulite, and I still manage to show some skin, dress young and fun, and nobody even gives me a second glance (unless its in appreciation!)

I guess all I'm saying is that confidence is what is really important, and self acceptance and love is what ends up shining through and making you seem attractive.

Anyway, time for bed, like always I got a busy day ahead of me.

Cheers

New Job!!!! Yayyyyyyy

Lol...all that being reliable was freaking me out so I decided to revert back to my old ways and skip a few days...but alas, the draw of the blog...it's like it sits on my mind even when it's not around and tells me that I should be sharing each moment with the world! lol

Ok, so ridiculousness aside, I just had to share that I got a job!! Yayy me!! Seriously, I am really happy, although its back at the retail level its a nice store, the manager and assistant manager both seem to really like me, I like the clothes, and everyone else seems really friendly. Plus they have incentives without all the commission/quota stuff so I'll be able to be all the friendly and helpful I can be and get a little incentive for it! Awesome, huh?

Anyway, so I start next week, coincidentally the same week I start school, so I'm sure next week I will be absolutely wiped out come Saturday night. I'm really going to have to suck it up and be really focused this summer. This will be the first time ever that I am in school and working. I feel so productive, really. I know, I know...everyone does post secondary and work and I'm really not special, and for most people this wouldn't even be a big deal, but it is for me.

It was such a conscious decision for me to not work through school, but I'm ready to take that on now...but its been so long too. So I guess I'm feeling both excited and nervous. What if I'm terrible? What if I end up flunking? (ok, granted I am only taking one class at a time, but still, its one of those reduced time schedules, so I'll be taking the full 16 weeks worth of work in 7 weeks). I don't know, I guess I only just found out, so we'll see. I'll let you know, but for now

Cheers

Sooo...4 day streak eh??

Wow!!!! I cannot believe this! A 4 day streak?!?!? This is crazy! lol...OK, so once everyone (including myself) gets over their amazement at this seeming dedication to my blog, we can move on to whatever new and interesting thoughts come to my mind today...

.....

Nothing. Sad. No wonder I only write every couple of days (ok ok, I know...months/weeks but come one, everyone gets to have personal delusions of grandeur every once in a while! :-p). Here I am looking into trying to get published, realizing that being an accomplished writer has always been a dream of mine that I dismissed for any other whim pretty much all of my life, and I can't even come up with one simple idea for an entirely inconsequential blog? *sigh* poor me. I'm just never very good at the things I try to do...

Don't think I am getting down on myself, I'm really not. It's just something I've acknowledged about myself, much like I've acknowledged I have no ability whatsoever to follow through with 90% of the things I start. You know, I just thought of something, and maybe this occurred to you already, but if I have no follow through, how will I ever manage to stay focused long enough on the idea of getting published to actually get published on some level?!? Maybe I need to stop shooting so high. Maybe I should start with a goal of like "I will write in my blog every single day for one month" and then go from there.

Ok, I make no promises though, because as we have all seen I just don't know how to stick to something, especially once it becomes an obligation. I hate feeling like i HAVE to do something (even if it's something I have to do for my own personal health or satisfaction). Maybe that ties into my absolute disregard and lack of appreciation for authority figures who try to impose their authority on my life. Hmmmm...I'll do some thinking on that and get back to you. Anyway, for now, going to go work out (I've decided I like working out and I like the results so why not? ;-)) and maybe find someone to share this beautiful Thursday with me, since tomorrow is going to be terrible and rainy :-S

Try to take advantage of the sun while you can!

Cheers

Giving Blood...

Ok, so it has come to my attention that if you have had an alcoholic beverage within 48 hours of the time you arrive at the blood bank you are not allowed to give blood. I don't know...doesn't that sound ridiculous to anyone else? As I said to the person who told me this, I think a person dying on the operating table who needs blood won't care that they wake up a little tipsy...just as long as they wake up. And then again, 48 hours??? Come on now

And I'm pretty sure (although I could be entirely wrong, of course) that we have the technology to purify an individuals blood as long as it's not diseased. I'm pretty sure a little bit of alcohol is not a disease, so why make such a BFD about it? Oh, and in case you are wondering why I even care at all (I mean after all, people make up jack ass policies that make no sense whatsoever all the time)this person is a universal donor.

You're going to turn down one man's blood...blood that could save EVERYONE'S life because he had a few drinks a couple days ago? Where are our priorities nowadays? *Sigh* I don't know...I think I am going to make that a stipulation in my medical file "Will take alcohol or drug flooded blood as long as it will save my life...will check into rehab later".Hmmmmmm....I should look into that

Wow, look at me, it's been a while since I've done an opinion piece! Go Me!!!

Cheers

Random Spring day thoughts

I don't know how many of you have spent any time outside today but OH MY!! It is so gorgeous! It's actually like summer out there. I'm thinking about going out anywhere tonight, absolutely anywhere, to take advantage of this absolutely glorious day!

So I'm going to summer school this year, going to get those extra classes in. Plus if I really want to fast track through University it would be good to get used to the 52 weeks a year school schedule now. Although, to tell you the truth I am really looking forward to summer school in a way. My college course went straight through the summer, and as much as I thought it was going to suck, I ended up having one of the best times ever.

Lazy days sitting around in class, breaks where you go outside just because you know it's beautiful outside...and everyone is in a much better mood during the summer. Plus, everyone feels a little better about being at school, so people actually bother to get dressed and showered every day and does their hair (I hate seeing those stupid lucky on campus students in their PJ pants!). Well it might be that people feel better about being in school in the summer, although I have a feeling it has more to do with the fact that summer days/nights are prime college party time, so everyone is preparing themselves for their parties before class.

So I've gotta start working out. Seriously though. I know, I say this every year, but this year I am going to be all fit and in shape by the time my birthday rolls around. At least this year I am much closer to my goal without having started. You see, I keep losing weight, but then I lose like 10-15 pounds, realize I look SOOO much better than i did and I stop. I think this time around I only have about 20 to lose before I think I am at my ideal body shape and size though, so the goal seems more attainable. Wish me luck..my lazy butt needs it!

Otherwise, out for the job search, although day by day I lose more and more faith that I will find anything at all...it just seems like nobody is ever hiring whenever I am looking, you know? I guess thems the breaks, right? Oh but speaking of jobs I gotta send out a big huge congrats to Desi, who managed to land a totally awesome job with Scotiabank...I think as celebration of all the new money he's coming into maybe he should take me out to celebrate! :-p

Anyways, Merry Springtime to All!!

Cheers

Tsk, tsk, tsk....

I know, I know...this is like one of my worst offenses ever...2 months?!?!? Gosh, it's almost like I don't even HAVE a blog anymore...lol. Ok, maybe if I could really get a following, some comments...SOME indication that someone other than me was aware I had a blog and was actively reading it it might give me some incentive.

The funny thing is many people do read it, and they tell me all about every one of my posts, but they never comment IN the blog...Come on people!! That's why there is a comment section after all!

Ok, ok, so I will end this on a slightly more positive note, but first I think I'm going to stop guilting myself into writing in the blog, and stop chastising myself for missing a few days (months! ;-)) at a time...who cares, when I write, I write...right?

Ok, so good going out point...THANK GOD FOR SPRING!!! Trust me, each few days that goes by and not only does it not snow, but it also stays nice and warm is a day that my spirit lifts like a million percent...I love being warm!

Hope everyone is enjoying spring as much as I am...

Cheers

Ok, Ok

So I'm a liar...it took a long time for me to get back to it. And I still don't have time to really post anything significant at the moment...in fact, I don't really even remember the stories I was gonna share :S...I know, I know, I suck...but so far so does 2008. I wouldn't say its curse-ed (u know how you should say it! Humour me, please! :P) like 2007 was, but so far it's definitely been something else. I'm seeing a lot of endings all around me (not just in my life, but in everyone elses too). I heard that 2008 was supposed to be the year of new beginnings, but so far all I see are endings...

I guess, then again anytime one thing ends something new begins, so I guess that can be a positive spin on things. Nobody ever said 2008 was going to be GOOD, DESIRED new beginnings after all....*sigh* and here I was so deliriously hopeful for this year. Maybe it will turn out better than I imagine, but at the moment I'm not sure how that could even be possible. Oh well, thats life eh? I have no delusions that my life is somehow special or different than anyone elses...its just that sometimes it gets to ya, you know??

Anyway, so I was drawn here to say Happy Valentine's Day to all. Remember for all you single, dateless people out there V-Day isn't just for lovers..in fact the single ones have much more fun! You get to dress up in red and pink and act all goofy with your really good friends...do it up this year...buy a bandana with little heart antennae coming out of it...or a tie that makes kissing noises!

And if you absolutely can't help but feel like you can't show your dateless, loveless face in public, stay home but feel good in the fact that at least you don't have to be some brainwashed drone who conforms to stupid, expensive hallmark holidays only to fit in with the crowd! And you can always use that extra money you would have on someone else's v-day gift on the most special person in the world...YOU!...no shame in buying yourself a couple roses, some nice wine or champagne, a box of chocolates and a delicious dinner for one!

Ok, so in the spirit of love I won't forget all you lucky people out there who are going to spend their v-day with that special guy or gal. Remember today not to make your v-day about the gifts, the PDA's, the getting a special dinner, etc. In the crazy hype that is society we've forgotten that ultimately what we should TRY to be celebrating this day is our love for one another. So remember how much you love your mate, how lucky you are to have each other, and use this day to celebrate your love. Trust me, love can be fleeting at times, so be happy for it, and realize how lucky you are to have it, when you have it.

Anyway, gotta run, but I hope all the best for your Valentine's day, regardless what you choose to do with it. If you're ignoring it, then have yourself a Happy Day Before Friday!!! :P

Cheers

OK...

So in my determination not to just forget about this blog again for weeks, I'm adding an entry here to say I do have a couple stories to tell, but no time to tell them right now! :P That being said, i will return. Sooner than the last time! Besides, I'm taking this course called Moral Issues, where we argue medical moral issues...in a class of over 500 students...so yeah, I'm gonna have a lot to say about that soon enough!

Suffice it to say that this semester, my new favourite pet peeve are people who ask stupid questions and are unobservant enough to not notice that somebody else (sometimes many other people) have just asked the same stupid question. Shut your mouth unless you have something intelligent to say, or unless you have actually spent longer than 2 seconds thinking about and looking into what you're gonna say!! Lordy! Anyway, more on that later

Hope your 2008 is going well so far

until I post again, my friend

Cheers

Happy New Year

Ok, so first of all, I must say, genuinely from the bottom of my heart, Happy New Year to all!!!

Secondly, I just wanted to tell you that in my opinion 2007 was an entirely cursed year (please read cursed as curse-Ed, like in Olde English flashbacks in movies. It amuses me!). From day one nothing went right in my life, and I can honestly say that it was the worst year of my life. I feel like everything that could go wrong did, and anything that I banked on failed, and to a certain extent I feel like I almost lost my mind. Seriously. Not even kidding.

But I really didn't realize just how bad things were until December 31st at around 10:30-11:00 pm. You see, it was December 31st 2006 at just that time that everything in my life went to hell and stayed there. No point on dwelling on the details of that terrible, terrible, fateful night, but let me just say New Years Eve 2006 was one of the worst days of my life, no exaggeration, and I can tell you that I realized almost immediately that that day was an omen of things to come in the new year. Boy was I right.

But anyway, as of around 10:30-11:00pm New Years Eve things officially stopped going wrong. Entirely. Its amazing. We (Desi and I) were so sure something terrible would happen. It was still 2007 after all. Then we realized the time that things had started going wrong. And like magic, we realized that it was already passed that time. It was over. It was true. And we waited. And nothing went wrong. And not only did things not go wrong, there were also pleasant surprises in store! I am SOO excited about 2008 and all the good things that I know are to come.

so yeah, HAPPY NEW YEAR

CHEERS!!!!! TO 2008!!