Didn't want to leave you hanging, so I thought I'd let you know I may not be writing for a few days, and if I do it may not be as fascinating and riviting as usual!! Seriously though, on a very serious note, I just wanted to share the concept that death sucks, no matter how it happens, and it always sucks more when it affects your own life. Being sad sucks too. In fact, I'm going to say being sad sucks a whole lot more than death does.
I'm really starting to think that everything sucks, and I wonder why it is that everything sucks as much as it does. Work sucks, school sucks, boyfriend sucks, friends suck, most movies nowadays suck. I wonder whether everything sucks, or whether my attitude sucks. Probably a combination of both, really. But I wonder whether I'd have such a bad attitude to begin with if everything didn't suck to begin with. I can remember times when I didn't have such a bad attitude toward everything...i was about 4, and life was always magical and wonderful! (if you're interested in more of my rant about how childhood is awesome and adulthood sucks (or does it?!?!) visit my Digital Stories page and chose the one titled Aging Crisis). Honestly watching the story might show you that I'm not actually always as cynical and critical as I am being right now.
To tell you the truth...my yesterday sucked, and the reason it sucked is because it started in the way every other day does, only this time it ended in such a sucky way, it really made me see not the silver lining on every cloud, but the dark, stormy undertone on them.....grrr....Ok, thanks for hearing out my vent. That actually made me feel a bit better....I guess whats always frustrating is that you know that the rest of life doesn't suck and if this situation didn't happen, you would still think life was fine, and one day you'll get past this pain, but today....today everything sucks, and it will until you feel better. God, I hope thats sooner rather than later. Especially for the others in this situation. They'll need this rant more than I did.
If you don't hear from me, I hope all is well with you, and I will get back as soon as possible (hopefully tomorrow with a better disposition!)
For now, I found nice, pathetic sounding country song that almost cheers me up with how sad sounding it is...enjoy
Cheers
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- J. Christle
- Mississauga, Ontario, Canada
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Man, I'm sorry ro hear that Yesterday didn't go so well for you. =( I hope everything is alright?
...a very misguided, though well intentioned friend said last night to me "...this too shall pass". So, eventually, of course, everything will be just fine. Thanks
T'was ever thus...
I have to agree with you, it does suck. And although your misguided but well intentioned friend is right, it doesn't matter. There are times when you don't want to be told that it'll pass because it's not the future that's the problem. It's the RIGHT NOW, and dealing with the RIGHT NOW, that's the problem. Whether it passes in a day, a month or a year doesn't matter, because you have to put everything into the NOW and getting through it.
Just so you know, we're all thinking of you. I wish we could all be there right now to give you all a hug (yes, your little cousin said she'd hug you!).
Well, peace and love to all of you.
You're so right about that. It really is the now. I think as adults we know that eventually we'll be fine. Right now I'm not...and i don't care to think about anything other than right now
That being said, thank you very much. And, just so you know, I am SO taking you up on that hug...after like 15 years she's finally gonna give me a hug cause she wants to!! *tear*
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